Think on this for a while...

"You become what you think about most of the time."

This quote hit me pretty hard today. I've heard it before but in different forms. "Think and you will create", etc, etc. I'm not sure why in this text it really hit home. Maybe because what I think about most of the time is this- why am I fat, why am I single and alone? Well that is exactly what I have created. A fat, single, lonely girl. I can't blame anyone else but myself. I did this to myself but I am determined that is not what I will be thinking about anymore. This is not who I am anymore. I'm going to remember that I am a beautiful, independent woman and I am so strong and can accomplish anything I set my mind to. I have the best friends anyone could ask for and my life is so full and the future is mine!
I want you to sit down and ask yourself what it is you think about most. If it is negative and not what you want, change it . It is up to you to fix what is wrong and no one else's responsibility. It is up to you to grab life by the horns and not let go until you have what you want. Don't worry about being selfish because in the end it up to you to make your life better and enjoy this limited time on earth. Because when you are happy and full-filled, just think who else's life you can change or influence. Just think what you can accomplish. No dream is too big or too small. Do it! Do it for yourself!

What are you going to become??

New ink!

I have wanted a tattoo since I was in my early 20's. I have gone back and forth with what I want but when it came right down to it I never went to get one. I think that deep in my heart I knew that what I thought I wanted wasn't really what I wanted on my body for the rest of my life. I am really glad that I never went through with it in the past. Now I am so happy with what I decided on and that I finally went through with it. I would be lying if I said that it didn't hurt. It did! Nothing that I couldn't handle and I am so pleased with the end result. I knew that when I got a tattoo it would have to mean something. Not just a cartoon character on my calf because I thought it was cute. I got something that means something to me. It doesn't mean much to most people but to me represents so much. First let me just tell you what I decided on. It is a peacock feather and I have loved peacocks and their feathers for a long time, long before it was the "in" thing. To me they represent not just beauty which is very evident at one glance but I see confidence and a pride unlike anything I have every seen before. Just take one look at peacock in full glory. They strut, they hold their head high and know that they are the most beautiful creature around. The feather also signifies a re-birth to me. People collect them and cherish them. That is what I am doing with myself. A re-birth of sorts, holding my head high, proud and confident of who I am and what I am. Beautiful and confident in my own skin and loving every minute of life!

This is Bob my tattoo artist. A genius! I did exactly what I wanted. Here I am getting the outline put on.

Getting ready, outline on, scared to death!!

Not so bad. Hurt but not as bad as I thought it would.

The finished product. I love the colors and everything about it!

May Update

Each month I have been measuring myself so that I can see the progress I have made that is not reflected on the scale. To date I have lost a total of 22 inches overall!! 22 pounds down and 22 inches down!! 22 might be my new favorite number this week. Here is the breakdown - 4 off my chest. 1 off each arm. 6.5 off my waist. 5.5 off my hips. 2 off each thigh. I'm so excited!!! I am also finishing up phase 1 of Jillian Michaels body revolution. I should have finished last week but I got sick so I didn't work out. I can't wait to start phase 2!
As for my 200 mile walking goal I have completed 8 miles so far. I am right on track. Having the treadmill at my house is really convenient and I love having it.

I took a side picture of myself to show how my body is shrinking and toning up.

Fall of 2011

May 1 (sorry for the flash!)

5k finished!

Last Sunday was the Cherry Creek Sneak. That is the 5k that I had been training for. I was a little nervous about how I would do and how much of it I would be able to run. I am very happy with my results. My official time was 47.26 which is better than my practice 5k that I did at Easter. I also had to stop half way through to go to the bathroom so I know that had I kept going my time would have been better. I also jogged a lot more than I did on Easter. I think I walked about 3/4 of a mile total. As I've said before I really don't like running but I know that I get more healthy and fit it will be easier for me. I will keep it up just not make it an everyday thing that I do. Here is a picture of my sister and I at the run.